I just had my last day of high school

A lot of people say how they’re so happy to finally be leaving high school and being done with it, leaving all the people behind and how much they hated it.

Honestly, it still hasn’t hit me that high school is over for me.  It might not hit me until even after I graduate officially on Thursday.  It is definitely strange to be finally done with waking up at 6 every morning to go to class, day in and day out.  I can definitely say I’m excited to be done with high school, but I wouldn’t say it’s because I’m leaving.  I’m excited to be moving on and adding more to my life (ie experience, friends, etc), not because I’m leaving the “hell hole”.

Maybe it was just that my high school isn’t full of complete asshats and douchewads, but I’m going to miss all of it.  I came in freshman year with the most cynical of mindsets, expecting the worst of the worst to come, but in the end it was just not that bad.  It was tough at times but it was also absolutely amazing.  I’ve grown a lot as a person over the past four years, learning from my mistakes as I go.  I know I’m not the only one and I was never alone in anything I went through.  Everyone was going through a lot of the same stuff as me and we all grew up the past four years alongside one another.  Sure I’m not close with like 90% of the grade, but that doesn’t mean I’m not gonna miss the idea of seeing them in school.  Actually, it’s not that I’d “miss” them, it’s just that….it’d be weird without them.  It’s hard to explain.  

All in all, I’m sitting here holding back tears because I’m finally done.  I remember freshman year I was convinced that I wouldn’t make it through high school, that I’d legitimately end up killing myself because of whatever stupid reasons 13 year old me had.  I’m glad I made it through and I’m happy with my high school years.  Sure, I could’ve done more…but I could’ve also done less and worse.  

congrats class of 2012, we’re finally done.